the only emotion she could decipher was fear
she vehemently hated when her future was unclear
this apprehension that she felt was making her nauseous
she used up all her energy in being overcautious
but organizing and being prepared didn’t help at all
the terror she was consumed by made her feel small
everyone just perceived this behavior as dramatic
but belittling someone and their problems isn’t exactly pragmatic
it was difficult for her to take a deep breath
she couldn’t calm down, she was far too distressed
it was suffocating and unbearable and very hard to witness
someone losing their mind because they didn’t want to experience homesickness
she unconsciously pushed away the idea of finding a solution
so now she was stuck in what felt like an eternal convolution
every single day almost felt like a continuous blur
she didn’t know why all of this was happening to her
even though a part of her knew she wasn’t at all alone
the mere fact that she was dealing with this made her feel like she was on her own
it isn’t easy to control something much bigger than oneself
she would never wish something like this upon anyone else.
